this week’s being so fucking odd , grandad’s had a stroke , s’kinda fucked me over , s’really made me consider what i’ve gotta do & why i need to get up and do something , next week , decorating my dad’s to a t , going to connextions and getting a job or apprenticeship & start earning some money 
can’t take being skint anymore , havn’t being accepted into college so going to just get something that i can earn some money on & finally get a grip on things instead of being stuck in this constant cycle of getting high/drunk everyday , s’getting a little over the top , i feel like the party hasn’t stopped since new years eve , every days had some form of being intoxicated involved aha so weird 
but now’s a change gonna get my head down & sort all this mess out  , wanna be able to just have a big bag of weed at the side of me instead of trying to scrape 5 pounds together to put to for a bud , takes the piss but hopefully all this will have changed by june / mid june.
random rant , but i really needed to get this off of my chest
fuck being a bum & lounging around every single day.